i dont like this.

i dont really think i can handle this.

well, not yet, anyway. i have so many things in mind; a debatable, questionable *notion* is not really something id like to entertain for now.

it's just that...things happen. i dont know the reason, but it does...ironically all of a sudden.

coincidence? ID LIKE TO BELIEVE it was.

i am denying again..and again. this time, it kills.

i hate the fact that it doesnt let me think, i hate the fact that it brings the affective side of me. im a thinker, damn it.

that october entry? forget it.

it's not happening.

---edit---
you know what? i dont really want to make a big fuss over this. fine, so what?

i mean, it's not like i have to expound on this, to bring this up for everyone to read.

i just dont know how to let it out.

as vague and abstract as this is.